Hey! I have a new legacy (and a new journal) and thought I'd post about it here cause I'm at the first heir poll! I dunno how many people still use live journal, but if you're interested in seeing my sims, bounce on over!
Okie doke. Seeing as I only use LJ for either Sims stuff or checking other peoples posts, I made a new one. It's devoted to Sims though, so I get if you don't wanna follow it. I'm not deleting this one (for now) but yeah, I don't really use it sooooo new one
I post my personal stuff on my tumblr, so no need to cross post here, unless there's something really important.
I was trying to hold out for Sims 4, but the more and more I see, the less impressed I am. And the CAS demo barely held my attention. And I do enjoy making Sims, so??? Yeah.
Probably gonna make a new family just cause that's EASIER for me
Also, hi, I'm alive. Barely. IDK what's happening with me. My neurologist thinks I have sarcal plexopathy but hell if I know when I find out the results cause I had the MRI in May and he still hasn't looked at it.
Also thinking of making a new LJ. I am making a new Simblr but I like using LJ to actually make Sims posts if I do it. So. A Sims LJ? Or just a new one in general cause this one is so. Old and full of shit lol Yeah? IDK probably
Not much to update for me on the medical front. My physical therapy is on hold because I'm getting worse instead of better, so they're worried the exercises are doing it. But we just DON'T KNOW, maybe I'm just getting worse in general cause it's not just my pain that's getting worse
My Neurologist is taking me seriously now though. My Pain Doctor witnessed one of my attacks (where I struggle to breathe cause I'm in so much pain and start crying and I'm just a complete mess, it's horrible and it happens a lot) So she noted this in the system and my Neuro was able to read about it. And he basically backtracked on everything he'd said the last time I saw him (how he KNEW what I had, central pain syndrome and, sucks for you bye) now he's saying "I don't know what's going on here". He ordered two MRI's which I did get (on my pelvis and my lower back) and an EMG which I won't be able to get until July because insurance. I just turned 26 and according to the government, that means I can no longer use my parent's insurance. But I can't work, yet I don't qualify for medicade so it's a bunch of YOU'RE SO FUCKED.
Lucky for me, my dad helped (did most of the work) and got me some new insurance through the obamacare plan which I really don't qualify for either, but it won't take effect until July. It's expensive. I've applied for Disability, hoping I get it so I can help pay for the insurance, but that's a long process and it's very likely I'll be told no. I have reached the stage where they're contacting all of my doctors though, and my doctors are on my side with this.
IN NON MEDICAL NEWS. I'm replaying Final Fantasy VII cause I got an urge. I love that game so much. At the same time, I started replaying Crisis Core. I ask for this pain. BECAUSE EMULATORS ARE COOL I intend on playing Chrono Trigger next. I've never played it, but I wanna play a pixel game and it's something I've always wanted to play. I also have Final Fantasy (FF1) and Earthbound in the wings, haven't played those either
AND I AM SO EXCITED THAT FLIGHT RISING IS OPENING REGISTRATION. YA'LL HAVE NO IDEA. DRAGONS.
I'm really fortunate I have a good friend (Puck!) who gets me out of the house as often as she can. She takes me to movies a lot too, which I'm eternally grateful for. We've seen Spider-Man 2 (GREAT) Godzilla (LOVED IT) X-Men (VERY GOOD) this month and she's taking me to see Maleficent today. I've been physically low the past few days, but it's a movie, the place we go has recliners that are comfortable, I'm medicated, and I wanna try. I wanna see this movie.
I had another skin "surgery" this time on my leg, upper left thigh (minor minor, I was awake and it took a few minutes). I believe it’s four stitches? To have a spot taken out. I asked and she told me it’s not melanoma but it’s a level above dysplastic. Basically it was about to mutate into melanoma within the coming weeks. According to the pathologist it was extremely severe, but not cancer just yet. IDK how they determine this but at least we got it.
So yeah. My body is determined to give me cancer. Honestly I'm waiting for it to manage it. I was so close the first time. Then again, we also weren't watching everything like a hawk like we are now. So I dunno. Just go see the dermatologist every three months for the rest of my life and continue to have moles taken off and little surgeries till I'm smothered in scars? Ehhhhhefjknd
I finally see the rheumatologist on tuesday. Seeing as the two neurologists at the med school believe I have chronic pain syndrome, I'm hoping that'll narrow things down (it can be caused by auto immune diseases, and I haven't experienced any of the other causes) doctors and me at this point though. I'm worried I'll go in and he'll just shrug and go idk like everyone else has. I can't even keep up with my physical therapy anymore I'm in too much pain. It's just getting worse and worse and now I get bad vertigo and my vision is getting to a point where I don't know what I'm looking at sometimes. I'm CONSTANTLY dehydrated. I'm either freezing cold or blazing hot (but I dont shiver/get goosebumps nor do I sweat. I have the ability to do both cause if it's actually cold or hot, I shiver or I sweat but it's like I get these flashes and my body doesn't react, other being severely uncomfortable)
They tried to take my blood the other day and i got stuck EIGHT TIMES cause they couldn't get a vein they've become so narrow. and they never did get any blood. I have to go back soon to try again.
IN THE LESS DEPRESSING NEWS
I've been playing MASS EFFECT and it is FANTASTIC. I think I'm getting close to the end of the first game (or at the very least I'm past the half way point) and goooooosh I love it. No one spoil me for ANYTHING but I just adore it. I'm playing as a guy (Dave Shepard, he's a lovely black man with green eyes and fluffy black hair who acts like captain america in space) and Tali is my homegirl. I also really like Garrus. And Kaiden is growing on me.
Both are SYNDROMES, caused by SOMETHING not just diseases on their own. Looks like both are caused by autoimmune disorders (SHOCKER) and my appointment with the rheumatologist is finally on the 25th so we'll see where things go from there.
ALSO I'm having another mini surgery cause my body is determined to kill me. One of my moles on my leg is pre-melanoma so I'm having basically the same procedure I did on my back. I'm awake, but they remove skin and tissue and I get a new scar.